Just to begin with... (1)

well.. I don't really know where to start from, so let's say we go back about 17 months. It's not that everything was ideal then, actually it can never be like that I think, but it was quite ok. "And then comes that moment that you feel like you 've been a mapped for some time and you suddenly get back to reality; you fall from the clouds and you land on the strongest and thickest surface that could ever exist. But whatever... you gather all your pieces and keep going. The most important thing? You go alone. There is nobody there. They might all be next to you, standing, talking, do whatever they think the best. But nobody is there, where you are. But that again is ok; nothing can be done about it. And you keep going. Nothing stops, so neither you too. And they might be so many things that you can try but you will never find the most appropriate one to make things better. It's only time that can solve things. Only time and just something new. The point here is to be able to see it coming and catch it; don't let it pass over. Because that's the ticket. If you miss it... it will take sooo much time till it gets back."
So, there was quite some time that I was not on my best. But then, the time for new things came. New place, new people, new frends and full of suprices! Yeap it was really nice! Of cource, there were momments that drag me back in which I didn't really give any weight but it finally filled up the glass and everything just ended there. The thing is that I should convince the mind too forget everything, as well.